Today I feel fatigued, miserable and driven to despairing boredom. Why today, rather than any other day, I can't tell. I think something requires repairing in my upper region. A fatigue so overwhelming that my eyes don't cease to sting and stroll tears after a good twelve hours sleep. I feel hot, flushed, yet I refuse to take off my house coat. I managed to reach the top stair and stumbled backwards and almost fell down. I sincerely do not know what is going on. I only know I want to sleep and I never want to love anybody.